Wants to know why she is not forgiven by Allaah
7-1-2007 | IslamWeb
Question:
this muslim girl who had been committed of embezzlement and she was very young at that age. being 15 and in the childish behaviour she took some money from her employer without informing him. later the employer found out and he told her to pay all that money. which her parents did and all went fine after that. but now after 5 years she still is very upset about what she had done. she remained sick after that and she has prayed so much so Allah will forgive her and she also asked for forgiveness from the employer. but she just can not get rid of that guilt. now she feels that she is being rejected by everyone and she got divorced after a week of her wedding since the guy was mentally disabled. she is quite sick now and wants to know why is she not forgiven by God when HE has promised to forgive the ones who repent. She thinks her marriage didnt work out because of her sin. Please throw some light on this. when she has paid back that amount and and is begging for forgiveness why is she not being forgiven? Please help her.
Answer:
All perfect praise be to Allaah, The Lord of the Worlds. I testify that there is none worthy of worship except Allaah, and that Muhammad is His slave and Messenger. We ask Allaah to exalt his mention as well as that of his family and all his companions.
If a person repents while fulfilling the conditions of repentance, then it is hoped that Allaah forgives him; for more benefit on the conditions of repentance, please refer to Fatwa 87903.
Therefore, since this girl repented and regretted what she did, and returned what she had stolen to its owner, then she has to think good of her Lord, and do good in the future. Also, she should ignore these whispers of the devil, that Allaah did not forgive her. How could she know that Allaah did not forgive her, as this is a matter of the unseen about which only Allaah Knows? It might be that the devil wants to lure her so that she will not perform acts of obedience and make her despair of the mercy of Allaah; indeed despairing of the mercy of Allaah is one of the grave major sins. For more benefit, please refer to Fataawa 83145 and 83055.
Furthermore, one is obliged to observe good morals with Allaah and should not object to what Allaah does using such wordings that are mentioned in the question.
As regards the difficulties and hardship that she is experiencing, this does not necessarily mean that they are due to a sin; rather this could be just a test. If she remains patient, Allaah will increase her status; for more benefit on the excellence of patience, please refer to Fataawa 89110 and 83577.
Finally, we advise her not to despair and not to surrender herself to these insinuations. Besides, she should endeavour to treat herself and look for a pious husband, and try to achieve what benefits her in this world and in the Hereafter.
It is confirmed that the Prophet 
said: "Cherish that which benefits you (in the Hereafter) and seek help from Allaah and do not despair or be lazy." [Muslim]